You can read my previous post regarding my degree path here:
As time went on, I continued amassing credits. Statistics and precal through Aleks.com… Byran College Leadership courses…. and of course- CLEPs and DSSTs. Eventually, around December of 2012, I was reaching crunch time. I had enrolled in TESC, and my tuition ran out in March. It was time to take my last high level courses, and cross the finish line.
But what is a race without needed that last boost of energy to finish strong? I found the need for mine in January. I’ll say this honestly- the last semester of college is by far the hardest out of the entire degree. You’ve got the pressure to finish on time so you don’t have to pay another year of tuition, the most difficult classes, and final papers a mile long. Not to mention you are tired. Tired of studying, tired of deadlines, tired of being tired.
I was SO ready to be done I could taste it. Problem was, nearing January that taste was growing more and more bitter. I was tempted to do just enough to get by, and even tempted at times to cheat. As I was going through this, my “key verse” wasn’t doing much for motivation either. I could feel my heart hardened to the process. I was, quite simply, done. I was ready to go work and make money, and stop spending 8 hours a day in my room working on class assignments.
In the midst of this personal struggle, I remember looking one day at the poster many people signed when I graduated from high school. on the side, in small writings, there was a phrase, signed with a mustache. It said:
“Never tire of doing what is right.”
I thought to myself “too late- I’m tired.” But the phrase kept going through my head the rest of the day. By coincidence (kidding), I happened to be reading Galatians, and read chapter six the next day. Ironically… This verse popped out at me.
“And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. ~Galatians 6:9~”
Noticing a pattern? Yeah, I was too. It was pretty clear I was being spoken to. Being told to keep doing good. Again, honestly, I didn’t feel like doing it. But I sucked it up, and did it. For the most part anyway. It is that verse, that kept me going in the final months. Did I enjoy it? No, but I knew that I had a responsibility to do so according to God’s word.
So, I’m not going to say I had a revolutionary change moment. Because I didn’t. I’m not going to say everything was all better and I felt great doing the last part. Because it wasn’t. Through the power of God alone though, I was able to keep doing what was right. Even when I personally didn’t feel like it. Like Puddleglum says- Sometimes we just have to put a bold face on it.
The next, and last post will be about completing the degree and the aftermath of such. Don’t worry- it won’t be as dismal as this one was. Because after a storm, the sun shines a little brighter.